My Goals for 2017

Hello everyone!

I hope you've all had a lovely Christmas, and have enjoyed some time off! With the New Year just a few moments away, I thought I'd do a little goals post for the oncoming year.

• Finish my degree with a 2:1
  I know some people strive for a first at university, but I'd be perfectly happy with a 2:1 as it's the next best grade, and I've had some hardships at university so I am more than ok with this grade!

• Pass my practical driving test
  This was on my goals list for last year, but I did pass my theory test on my second go! Woohoo! I've been a bit busy, or I hadn't had the money for lessons and the test itself. But, this year I plan to defeat any driving anxieties and get myself a little car! I've wanted (needed) to drive for so long now, as I'm always between my mums, my dads and my boyfriends house so I'd love to sack in the public transport ASAP!

• Go travelling
  My boyfriend and I have wanted to go on holiday for years, and we've had the idea of using the interrail across Europe. As we finish our degrees by May, hopefully the idea is to spend a couple of weeks visiting all the places we've wanted to go to!

• Regular blogging
  Now that I've picked blogging back up, I'd like to keep doing it on a regular basis. I don't want to put any pressure on myself to do so many posts each week or anything like that, as this is a hobby, and I want to be able to enjoy it!

• Keep a diary for a year
  This is something I've wanted to do for so long, to document my life in a diary for a whole year! I think it'd be really interesting to see how the year develops, and at the end of the year look back and see how things have changed, or how I felt.

• Take a photo of myself everyday
  Again, this is something I've wanted to do for a while, especially when I've seen other people do it. I don't particularly like taking photos of myself, only on days where I feel I do look ok, so this will be something interesting to see how I change throughout the year!

• Try and achieve a savings account £££
  With the end of my degree being just around the corner, now is the time to start saving up, as I don't know what the future holds just yet! I also have some plans lined up so I'll need money for those. But also it's a smart idea to try and save up towards a house, this will take a while, but it's as good a time as any if I want to have my own home!

• Make time for friends and family
  I'm carrying this on from last year, as I do feel I've improved with seeing my friends and family more often, which is always hard between university and working. But I am trying to be less of a Netflix hermit and go out and do things when I can! Plus, this past year I've learnt that you must make the most of the time you have.

• Make more time for myself
  I've seen a few other people make this a goal for new year, to make more time for yourself. I've also learnt that it's very important to make time to focus on you, especially in times of stress or if you're busy. Even if it's taking an hour out to have a bath, or read a chapter or two of a book you've been meaning to read!

I've done these little goals for a couple of years now, and I enjoy doing them. I think it's good to set yourself goals, or try and do things you wouldn't normally do, and help make the next year more interesting!


Let me know what your goals are for 2017!

Love Saffron x

Films to Get You in the Christmassy Mood

Happy Christmas Eve to you all!

If like me you've been working your bum off with university work, or actual work, you might have been some of the unfortunate souls working today!

So you might be finding it a bit hard to get into the Christmas spirit, but fear not! I have some Christmas films which might just get you to join in the festivities...


Elf (2003)

I didn't see Elf until my mid teens, and I absolutely loved it! There's something about Will Ferrel in an elf costume that is hilarious, and many laughs to be had. It's one of those sweet child-like films! Plus Zooey Deschanel sings and is an all round babe.
        

Gremlins (1984)

Now, Gremlins is an all time childhood favourite of mine! If you haven't seen it you must! It has elements of Christmas, horror and even comedy, depending on how you watch it! Gremlins used to terrify me when I was younger, but now I've grown up a smidge they're not so bad...



Love Actually (2003)

Love Actually, actually is an all time favourite of mine, full stop. Being the first of it's kind to successfully mingle several romantic storylines which all meet up at the end, it's really hard not to love, actually. For me and my mum, we can watch this all year round, it doesn't have to be Christmas to love this film!



Arthur Christmas (2011)

This is probably one of my favourite animated Christmas films, Arthur Christmas stole my heart! I love all of the actors who voice the characters, and it's such a sweet modern take on Santa Claus. I find that once I find an amazing Christmas film I can watch it over and over, and Arthur Christmas delivers that for me! I look forward to seeing it each year.



Nativity (2009)

Now, it might sound bizarre for a bunch of twenty one year olds (nearly twenty two year olds) to love a film about the nativity...but me and my friends love this film! The amalgamation of Mr Poppy and the adorable children is hard not to love! Let alone the really catchy songs! I've found myself often singing along to them maybe when I shouldn't be...



The Holiday (2006)

1. Jude Law. 2. Cameron Diaz. 3. Kate Winslet AND Jack Black? Need I say more? Well if you say so! This is another fave our mine and my mums, again we can watch this all year round. It's such a cute romantic film, and if Jude Law doesn't make you swoon, there might be something wrong with you...Plus the soundtrack is pretty cool, and one of the actors; Eli Wallach spent over 60 years working in Hollywood working with all the greats! (Excuse my fangirling)



The Grinch (2000)

Wow, is this film really sixteen years old?! It feels like only yesterday I was a young Taylor Momsen wannabe singing along to "Where Are You Christmas?" in my pink and purple bedroom! I always have to watch this around Christmas, I absolutely love love love Jim Carrey, he was my favourite comedic actor growing up. Also, from growing up (and I'm sure you've noticed this as well) that I have a lot in common with the Grinch...

I hope you've enjoyed my little Christmas Eve blog post, and the Grinch GIFs!

Let me know what your go to Christmas films are!

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas, whether you celebrate it or not, whether you're going through something which is getting you down. This is a time to spend with your loved ones, stuff your faces silly and hopefully relax in between!

Love Saffron x

Advent Calendars

This year for advent calendars I wanted to step outside the box a little bit, I have never had a beauty calendar before and have always wanted one. So this year I treated myself to two twelve day beauty calendars (unfortunately I couldn't afford the twenty four day ones) and a Lindt calendar as well.


Studio Advent Calendar (£8.00 down from £16.00 Superdrug)

I chose this calender as it was half price in Superdrug, and I've needed some new nail varnishes for a while now! They are minitures, but I love that they are small as they are easier to put in a small make up bag or going out bag if you need to touch up your nail varnish!

These four varnishes were in doors 1 - 4.

Tanya Burr Cosmetics Advent Calendar (£15.00 down from £25.00 Superdrug)

I was so excited to see Tanya Burr's beauty calendar, and even more excited when I saw the affordable price range. Also, a lot of the beauty products are full size! I couldn't believe it, and thought that this is probably one of the better affordable calendars with appropriately sized products inside. My only issue with this calendar was that the doors were quite hard to open, and had to very carefully pull along the perforations otherwise I could've ripped the whole front of the calendar off! (This could just be a picky point from me as I always like to carefully open the doors so I can close them again...)

I've had a crush on the packaging of Tanya's products for a while, especially the lip sticks/lip glosses and the nail varnishes, they just look so pretty.

Lindt Advent Calendar (£4.00 in a two for £8.00 deal in the Lindt store)

I've always been a huge fan of Lindt chocolate, and I seized the opportunity to get one of the advent calendars this year. As you can see on the box, you can get five different styles of Lindt chocolate so you can get something different everyday! I think the thought of that makes me a bit too happy...

Overall I'm really impressed with the calendars I've bought this year, it's really nice having a variety to open from each day, and I will definitely be buying similar calendars next year!

Saffron x

A Little Update for You...

Hello!

Today I thought I'd write a little post about the progress of my blog, and my YouTube channel. If you've subscribed to my channel, or watch some of my videos you would have noticed I haven't uploaded in a little while...Now it's not for lack of trying or I can't be bothered. I got so busy over the summer and through this first semester at university, that I have quite the back log of videos to edit! So I won't be making anymore videos for the time being, I have a couple planned that I want to do before the New Year, so hopefully I'll have the time to do those!

Meanwhile, with my blog I'll be undertaking some changes to the layout/look of my blog as I never seem to be happy with how it looks! But, I plan to do more regular posts, as I'm finding it easier to write posts than film videos. Plus, I used to love writing, and it makes me happy when I blog.

I've got a few posts planned for the next few weeks so my blog will be more active, so keep your eyes peeled!

Thank you for reading my little update!

Love Saffron x

Wowcher Purchase!

Hey guys!

I've never used Wowcher before, and I was just internet shopping the other day and thought I'd give it a go!

Even though I found the site to be a bit cluttered, it does appear to have some good deals! I purchased two things, one is yet to arrive. I was really impressed with the quick delivery as I wasn't expecting to receive my package until next week!

My first purchase was a ten piece make up brush set from Alvi's Fashion. I really wanted some new make up brushes as I've kind of got a weird make up brush obsession at the moment! I don't even wear a full face of make up very much, but I find the brushes really pretty!

When I saw this deal, I thought why not as it's ten brushes for £5.99 (at the time of purchasing) and I don't have every kind of make up brush yet!

In an ideal world I would have all real techniques make up brushes, but that's incredibly out of my price range! So I think for anyone really needing a full collection of make up brushes, I would recommend checking out Wowcher for their deals!

This deal is still available until 2/1/17 so grab it whilst you still can!

http://www.wowcher.co.uk/nationwide/national-deal/deal-1998943-detail/10-piece-makeup-brush-set-alvi-s-fashion-49-99/deal.html?searchresult=true

Love Saffron x

SIGNED GIRL ONLINE GOING SOLO GIVEAWAY!

That's right, you read correctly!

I am giving away two signed copies of Zoe Sugg's newest addition to the Girl Online series; Girl Online Going Solo.

I planned to do this when I pre-ordered my signed copy, in case some readers weren't fortunate enough to buy one, I thought I'd host a giveaway. What I hadn't intended was getting two extra copies?! I somehow ended up in total with three signed copies and one unsigned copy. I have no idea what happened! But, I thought I could giveaway two, and have the unsigned one just for reading and the signed copy can look pretty on my shelf!

The giveaway starts right now! It's running up until 31/12/16, so don't forget to enter as soon as you can, enter by following me and retweeting my pinned tweet, good luck!

https://twitter.com/SaffronWatson_

Love Saffron x

2016 Goals Catch Up

Hello!

This post is all about looking back at the goals I made for myself at the beginning of this year, as I thought it'd be good to remind myself! As I think we all do the same thing, by setting these resolutions and goals and we get a bit over ambitious, and never end up completing them. So I thought I'd see where abouts I've got to, and it might inspire both myself and you reading this, to try and strive and complete said goals.

So above is my little list, and I'd forgotten a lot of these! I will talk you through which one's I have or haven't completed, and one's that I might be in the midst of completing.

1. I've been to a panic group session, which wasn't for me, and I asked for one on one sessions, and then they found out that I had Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD). I then went on for a further assessment, and finally got onto a course of one on one counselling. I think at first everyone's hesitant about counselling, and I was too. I wasn't sure how talking to someone would help me, and lessen my problems. However, over time I think I have seen a big difference. I still can get quite bad episodes of anxiety, but I feel that I can cope better (sometimes) and I've taken away with me a lot of useful information that hopefully if I stick to it, will help me even more in the future.

I don't think anyone can find the true root of their anxiety, I think I was using the "root" as another excuse, for example: "yeah if I find the root, I can fix it and it'll go away". I've found that I kept getting further and further into different states of denial, but I've started to get over that now.

2. I can proudly say, with loads of bumps in the road, I did overall get a 2:1 for my second year or university! I didn't think I would make it, but luck was on my side and my hard work paid off! Now just to crack on with third year, to make a full 2:1 more of a reality!

3. and 4. Sadly I did not get to go on holibobs this year (as of yet, who knows!) However, I did go to V Festival with my friends, and just spent Bestival with my boyfriend and close friend (although it was a filming job, we still got to go on a boat, so kind of a work holiday?).

5. Technically, I have made two films over the summer, but they weren't my own work, which was what I was intending to do! I wanted to write a script and feel like I had made my own idea. None the less, I still was a part of two films outside of university, so I can't complain!

6. Now I can say I've had a crack at this! Albeit, my vlogs aren't very "vloggy" as in they do lack a lot of talking to camera out and about, but I am working on it, and I've been filming a lot more, so my confidence has improved, and my own voice isn't actually irritating me anymore!

7. Yeah...The savings thing hasn't happened! Shock!

8. Now I've done part one of this! I passed my theory test in early August! Now I'm hoping to pass my driving test for New Year, but I'm yet to get back behind the wheel, so we shall see how that goes!

9. Yeah, no.

10. I don't know quite what to say for this one as of yet, I'd say I have been more a social butterfly at times, and have tried to keep up with seeing friends and family. But, I've also realised how busy life is when you turn into a (kind of) adult! Plus, I think a goal like this one, you can't complete it, you just have to keep that goal open.

So this is what my 2016 goals look like so far!

• Go to cognitive behavioural therapy to try and find the root of my anxiety

• Pass my second year of university with at least a 2:1

• Go on holiday with my boyfriend over the summer

• Go on holiday with my friends again

• Make my own short film in my spare time

• Start vlogging to boost my confidence

• Actually have a savings that I don't dip into all the time

• Pass my theory and driving test

• Get an awesome car with an equally awesome name

• Make more time for friends and family

All in all, I'm kind of impressed! When thinking about writing this post, I didn't think I had done a lot of my goals, but I've done 4/10, and I've achieved other things this year. Such as: completed and raised £100 for the Race for Life Pretty Muddy 5k, and bagged some work experience at a film studio for later this year! 


I've got so much more to do this year, and I still think that even thought I may, or may not achieve all of these goals. I strongly believe it is healthy to set realistic, or even goals that might be that small stretch away, to push yourself and get out of your comfort zone!


So for those of you that have goals or resolutions that you set yourself in January, have a look back and see if you can  do some of those things you set out to do!

Good luck!

Love Saffron x

Anna Saccone Necklace Unboxing and Review

For my birthday, I knew I wanted an Anna Saccone necklace. Anna is a YouTuber along with her husband Jonathan Joly, with their two children.

I think I heard about her jewellery through a vlog, or a friend who watches the Saccone Joly's regularly. I immediately fell in love with the design, and the story behind the range.

The pictures above are the packaging the necklace comes in. There's also two really cute cards to find out how Anna decided to create the jewellery range.

I really loved the idea that Anna had a necklace of his, and designed the other star signs from that necklace. I love being a Leo (whatever that means to you) I love lions, and big cats, and for some reason love that it is my star sign. I just thought it was a very pretty piece of jewellery, and I asked my lovely boyfriend if it could be one of my birthday presents!

I chose the silver one, as the rest of my jewellery is silver so I wanted it to match! I really like the quality of the lion piece, and the chain, I've had it since about the 15th August, and I've worn it to bed and to V Festival and it's endured everyday use. I had started taking it off before bed and before showers just in case! 

One issue, is that it gets delivered from America and it took roughly a month to arrive, whereas on the website I believe it said three weeks, but I'm a patient girl!

All in all, I'm really happy with the necklace, with how it's designed and the really cute backstory of it's making.

You can find all of Anna's jewellery line here: https://stilnest.com/en_us/annasaccone

I'm Now on YouTube!

Hello!

I previously mentioned making the leap from my blog to vlog in other posts, and it's taken some time but I did it!

I recorded about four videos in total and I chose the one I liked best, as I find it quite hard being on screen it took me a few goes to come across the way I want to everyone.

Being a perfectionist is hard, especially when it comes to knowing that people are going to be watching and listening to you (hopefully!) as I don't want to come off as perfect, because that's not who I am. I want to show you guys who I am (this includes my weird side) I also screened my video to two of my closest friends first to see what they thought. Even though I do come off a bit awkward it's just an introduction of myself and what kind of videos I would make. So hopefully it does look ok and that I don't come off as a complete moron!

Please don't take me too seriously, I want to make videos for fun and to document my life, so feel free to laugh at me!

Here it is:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYc3NMMLD38

I even got a little bit fancy and made my own thumbnail, so please appreciate how long it took me to finally make a video and edit it! I did leave in some weird bits, and there are cuts and jumps in it as I'm still settling into making videos of myself, it's kind of scary but exciting at the same time!

I'm hoping that soon I will pluck up some more courage and put out videos regularly, as I want to build up my confidence by doing this as well.

If you're interested in watching my videos, I'll be speaking to you very soon!

Love Saffron x

Panic on the Dance Floor

..."But you better not kill the groove"

Hey guys!

The reason for this homage to an old classic by Sophie Ellis Bextor is because recently I went out with my friends, as we do nearly every month. I always look forward to going out with them as we have fun and have a good laugh too, and take lots of pictures and videos to capture our fun. I don't have to worry about getting anxious or panicky around them, because through past events I've subconsciously built trust with my friend group and the anxiety gets shut away so I can just enjoy myself.

But, this time something went wrong.

I did my usual get ready schedule, I start getting ready earlier, I don't rush myself, if I start to feel my heart pounding or light headed, I sit down and take some deep breaths. I did everything right, I even put a little more effort into what I wore, my hair and my make-up, I felt really good about myself. When I asked my lovely housemates if I looked OK they said nothing but compliments, so I  left the house ecstatic to show off my look and flaunt my best moves at our favourite club.

We met at our usual pre-drinking pub for cheap drinks and to catch up on gossip, work and all things girly. Got into the club and started requesting Taylor Swift (which is always a must!) got drinks and settled into flailing around like mad people.

I started to realise my heart wasn't 100% into dancing and drinking this night, which made me feel disheartened as usually I'm the member of our group who goes full pelt into drinking and dancing, and not caring what I look like, or if people are watching. All of my problems starting seeping through into the forefront of my mind, not paying attention to the pop songs, or my friends serenading each other. All of my university work, and stress with deadlines, all of the thoughts going through my head that make me severely unhappy.

I kept trying to keep my head up, smile and dance away. But, something pushed me over the edge.

I saw an old work colleague, she accidentally bumped into me and apologised, and I recognised her and started to talk to her. She didn't recognise me and thought I was someone else, she did apologise and say that she was "smashed" so I left her to it. I couldn't help but feel down about someone I worked with a lot, didn't know who I was. However, I carried on the night trying to forget my troubles.

Then, later I saw her dancing with a guy, this wouldn't have been an issue normally, but to my knowledge she was in a relationship. And I have a huge problem with people cheating on their partners, and with guys creeping on girls, in this case a very drunk girl. Something pushed me over the edge here, I started to get hot, started breathing sharply, my eyes were welling up, and I knew I had to get out. I pushed past other clubbers, half ran down the stairs into the garden to the first bench I saw un-attended by anyone and burst into tears and hyperventilating.

This has never happened to me before in a club. It's never happened when I've been with my close friends. What on earth had just happened to me? Why had I been reduced to tears and lack of breath over things that don't seem rational?

I don't know how long I was sat there for, but I ended up drawing attention from some strangers who asked me if I was ok. It turns out I actually sort of knew them which was comforting! They did actually cheer me up and wanted to know what was wrong, and I'm so grateful that they were there.

When I was sitting there by myself as a big crying mess, I knew I wasn't getting any better. The fact that this happened somewhere I'm usually comfortable, and with people I'm comfortable with, means I'm not OK.

I haven't been OK for a while now, and after Christmas I was under the facade that I was feeling better, going to therapy and giving others advice. When I think it was just another phase of denial. With the amount of stress I've been under recently, and the state of my emotions and my brain, I've been off the charts with panic attacks. As I've said previously I don't like saying anxiety, or panic attacks, there are various scales of both. I wouldn't say I had full on attacks, but that I was close, I had two in two weeks. Whereas usually I would only have one in two years.

I had started group therapy sessions for a "panic group" but I've opted for one on one therapy, as I think there's a problem rooted in me, that I want to try harder to sort out. I've only come so far trying techniques myself, with breathing exercises, distractions, fresh air and taking shop bought drugs to prevent getting ill.

As I have no set trigger for my anxiety, I can't try to treat one area of it. Many scenarios can set me off, a crowded place, needing the toilet and not knowing where the closest one is, travelling a long distance, going somewhere new, being late for something, phone calls, talking to people I don't know, stress, confrontation, interviews, presentations, or sometimes I can just be sat down at home and my heart is pounding.

Please let me know if you're feeling the same in the comments! 

I'm not alone and neither are you, I'm just tired of not being in control of myself!

Thanks for reading<3

Saffron x

I'm Still Here!

Hey guys!

Or at least the few that might read this...I am sorry I haven't been uploading an awful lot, I'm actually really disappointed in myself.  Because blogging makes me happy, it gives me something other than University to do, and it helps me document things in my life. 

If any of you are at University you must know how busy and hectic it is, plus I'm on a creative course, so it's not just sitting at a computer and locking myself in my room and getting it all done. It's sitting at my computer emailing, messaging, searching and googling, ringing people, location hunting, rising money for films, badgering people for work AND trying to attend all my lectures and go to work!

Life gets so busy, and I'm juggling so much, but something that I have really been wanting to do for myself and for those of you that might read this. I want to start making videos, I want to actually talk to you guys and document my life through film. 

As soon I am about to walk into a hurricane begrudgingly, whilst trying to sort out my personal life and issues. So, I guess what better time to start attempting to vlog right?

I just wanted to keep you updated that I haven't disappeared into an abyss never to be seen again, I've just been hibernating, I tend to do that all year round. However, I want to stop hiding and embrace life, because it's short.

Hopefully the next time I see you guys is through a lens!

Thank you for reading this,

Love Saffron x

Chop the Tresses!

Hi guys!

On Friday the 8th of January I finally did something I've been needing to do for a long time!

I've been growing my hair since I regretfully cut it above shoulder length about four years ago, and I've been praying for it to grow it to the length it was. In the past year my hair got really long, which I was delighted with!

I can't find any decent photos to show you my long locks from four years back, as I wasn't really into selfies or documenting my life. What I can show you was the length I had it before I got it cut and the after photo, as I sure wasn't missing this opportunity!

As you can see previously, with my dark brown/auburn hair, and dip dyed ends, it doesn't look very healthy and it just looks dead. Whereas in the next photo it all looks so much healthier! I don't regret my cut, it's at the perfect length for me as it's not too short and not too long either, and I got it re-dipdyed as it all got cut off!

I also love that aside from my grown out fringe that my hair is all one length! It's been bugging me that my hair was so uneven through grown out layers I had put in years ago!

I thoroughly recommend any of you with fairly long hair, to get a good chop off as it's so refreshing! I feel more motivated to do more with my hair now, so keep watch for my (poor) experimentation!

Saffron x

Good Bye 2015! Hello 2016!

Hello everyone!

This is my first blog post of 2016 exciting isn't it!

Last year a lot happened to me, especially in the last six months of 2015. In a short space of time I'd realised I had anxiety and very quickly tried everything I could to try and shift it! I thought that I could blame it on a friendship that had been upsetting me since last christmas as it was the only slightly traumatic thing to happen when I started getting anxiety moments. I tried different breathing exercises, started playing more games on my phone to distract me from getting anxious, to completely having to walk out of rooms or outside to get fresh air and let it blow away the anxious-ness.

Of course there's no quick remedy as I've come out of denial. I'm gutted that this could be a more permanent aspect of my life, as I get held back from what I used to be able to do. In the short while I've had this I've created coping mechanisms, as before mentioned in my "Why blog?" post blogging and reading have been making my life much easier! Especially by coming out officially to Twitter and Blogger about my anxiety, I found people who are just like me, and it makes me feel so much better that there are others out there! 

My most recent read is Zoella's "Girl Online" I tried to start reading it before Christmas when I was at Uni but Uni takes over my life in more aspects than I'd like it to. It's so refreshing to read about a characters anxiety, and you'd think that reading about anxiety might remind me that I have it and I'd get an anxious moment. But no, it's such an easy and relaxing read and I can relate a lot to Penny (not the embarrassing or humiliating aspects) the way that she feels and how she tries to cope with panic attacks. 

I'm fortunate that I was a strong person before my anxiety, I've dealt with a lot more things than I would've liked in my short lifetime. So I have more strength to keep away panic attacks. I think I've only had about two proper panic attacks in my life, the most recent when I got trapped in the Isle of Wight festival crowd. My lovely friend dragged me through the crowd almost beating people up to get us out, as she too was having a panic attack. I would never dramatically say that my anxiety is like having panic attacks all the time, because having a panic attack is awful, it's vile! There are some people who genuinely get bad panic attacks, so it frustrates me when people claim they have it all the time! A panic attack for me, is where I am no longer able to see in front of me anymore, I can't think and I'm not in control of my own body, I can't breathe so I start uncontrollably hyperventilating so much that I might be close to being sick. Never would I claim to have this all the time. It's horrible and I do everything in my power not to let the anxiety take over.

I think a lot of the time we take ourselves for granted, we don't pat ourselves on the shoulder enough when we've been crawling through life's struggles. I'm genuinely really proud of myself, mostly for the latter part of the year. How quickly I actually opened up to my peers and family about what was wrong with me, and seeking counselling too. It's so much better to find and ask for help, you might think that no one will understand or no one can help you, but that's just the demons talking. There's so much out there now to help, you just have to look for it, and talk to someone, anyone!

I grew out of New Year's resolutions a long time ago, instead I write down each year the things I want to do. Last year I made a list of improvements to my life:

It wasn't be all and end all if I didn't do these things, I didn't do a lot of beehives, or got my ear pierced (but it's imminent as my boyfriend is paying for it!) I just think it's healthier to have some goals set for the year ahead. And here are mine:

• Go to cognitive behavioural therapy to try and find the root of my anxiety

• Pass my second year of university with at least a 2:1

• Go on holiday with my boyfriend over the summer

• Go on holiday with my friends again

• Make my own short film in my spare time

• Start vlogging to boost my confidence

• Actually have a savings that I don't dip into all the time

• Pass my theory and driving test

• Get an awesome car with an equally awesome name

• Make more time for friends and family

I will keep you guys updated over the year on which goals I've reached, as now I have a small group of readers to help influence these goals! I do also need to exercise more but I'm not being so strict on it as I don't want to force myself to do it, I want to enjoy exercising and find my love of running again in my own time.

Now for you guys, it's your turn. Plan some events this year and get one of those countdown apps to show what you have to look forward to, I've been doing this for the past three years (I have a monthly countdown to pay day because I'm sad) and it really helps me cope with the year to know I have such exciting things ahead of me! But also I want to know your goals for this year, what are you going to set out to fulfil, or if you do New Years resolutions comment on what those may be!

I will reply to all of you, also comment if you deal with anxiety or anything that takes control on your life!

I'm here for you,

Saffron x